Day 31 of Domestic Violence Awareness month, I kept saying all month long 30 days, mainly because today I wanted to give a lil glimpse of a survivor’s life aka mine. I had stated earlier that I am a survivor of domestic violence, I sometimes don’t talk about it because as victims you try to not hurt people no matter how much they might have hurt you. I am not in the hurting business, just the loving business, but as the years have gone on and the more, I see, I thought, it’s time I told my story and when I chose to write my story, it was hard, but needed cus it has been therapeutic for me too. Even though I got out of my marriage 3.5 yrs. after it started (1998), it took me a couple more yrs. to completely let go of my feelings for my ex to where I could speak without being afraid of what might happen.
We victims have to learn to not go back to the person that hurt us cus something was wrong with them even though they tried to make it seem like something was wrong with us. I love everyone, I try to help everyone I can, but for some reason God believed I was strong enough to go through this abuse in all ways of the word. I thank God till this day for helping me survive this and to be here today to tell my story or at least a lil of it here and one day you can read it and share it to help others. I’m glad I got out so I could show my young men that violence is not love, it’s hurt and harmful. They are 2 loving guys, and I am glad I am here to see them grow, cus twice I wanted to end my life cus I didn’t think I deserved to be happy. So, since I am still here on this earth, I am going to live my life and enjoy it to the fullest cus I AM A SURVIVOR AND I LOVE ME AND YOU TOO. If you read this to the end, I thank you and you be blessed. hug someone today, even if it’s yourself. Please everyone if you or someone you know is being abused, get help to get away from your abuser, I had to make it up in my mind that that life wasn’t for me. I am one of the blessed ones, you can be too.
